Confused

Lately i have been so flipping confused about is happening in my life. I really want to be able to know what someone feels about me. So basically this is to continue my just wow blog.. I feel like again I'm still confused about what the hell is going on with us. I have been having bad dreams, some concerning you others concerning my family. but i had a dream about the fact that you wouldn't talk to me anymore. I don't know where that is coming from but hey its part of like. When i said something to you about it i got they reply i wanted and you told me that you where still talking to me and i shouldn't have bad dreams about that. Well it sucks still because i don't know what the hell is going on. I have talked to a few friends and they tell me to just take it easy and place it safe. To be honest i just want to scream. I hate being confused...just let me know how is on your mind. You want to get to know me then please just do it. Why are your nerves getting in the way of that. Does getting to know me mean that the next step is marriage. No its just getting to know me and then seeing if its something that you want to know even more about.
I bet this sounds like I'm just bitching, but this is how i feel... Liking you kinda hurts. Because i do like you, but am very much respecting your wishes to heal from before. I just like to be on the same page if anything else. I hate that I'm seriously letting this get to me. Even my roommate show me breakdown last night because I'm kinda confused and he know how much i hate that. Blah... whats going on?