So tonight didn't go the way it was suppose to...I am really confused about is going on right now. Plans to take a friend out to dinner just didn't happen. Its really disappointing but hey i understand truly why it happen. The reason i feel a little confused in because this person just ended something long term a few weeks ago. I truly understand why a person wouldn't want to get involved because of this previous breakup. But it we said that we are just going to try and get to know each other. Take thing slow.. and I'm down for that. because i think just like you do.. I'm fucking sick of people who are just looking to have a fling. To be honest I have done that before and it has brought me nothing but heartache. So I'm don't want that anymore. I want a relationship. i want someone who just want to hang out with me and i know that its something real... there are just to many people who don't want that and I do. I get really confused about how to interpret some of your words. Things like "i don't want to start something so soon" i understand that and i agree, but It confuses me because we said that we wanted to be friends get to know each other a little better. so does that means that you have possible feelings for me. if so just tell me please because I'm thinking one thing reading another. Its OK if you do please just let you let me know... I'm a really good guy and i think, no i know that you know that because you have told me. But i want to give the the respect and time you need to heal from your previous relationship. This may seems as if i am wearing my heart on my sleeve and that may be true. but i have never want to see a lot of my social future until now. Thanks to good people like you and my best friends's Bobby and Ryan. You have one of the biggiest heart i have seen in a while and i am not in any way trying to break that. I thank you bobby because you took it upon yourself to talk to someone for me to see what was going on, and explained to I'm a upstanding guy to get to know. And if i didnt think that you wanted to get to know me then you would have never came up to me to explain something that was said.
Again i know that you are scared and so am I, which is why we wanted to chill while getting each other. So don't please don't be nervous around me, and i will try my best not to be nervous around you. We have a lot in common and that scares us both more. OH MY GOD just let me where you head is because im so confused... but at the same time im not giving up. if its the last thing i do. No matter what I have to do
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