Whats going on

Today has been so different. I body is so different about everything. My mind is just not where it needs to be. I was just having dinner with a couple of friends and I felt as if i was so distance from them. I think i was apart of the conversation but I felt as if I just wanted to be alone. I get this way sometimes when i have about 10 things going on in my head and I'm trying to process them all out at once. Does that really work realistically. I don't think so. I have graduation on my mind (I am so scared about graduation, one because i have always thought that I was ready to be totally on my on, but really am I. I don't want to leave my friends because for the ones that are close I'm afraid that they wont come see me or call me if and once I leave. I just really scares me.) I really tired of working right now. i really feel that my body is trying to tell me that its done and it needs a lot of rest. I don't feel sick or anything but you know how to feel sluggish and all you just want to do is lay there. That is really how I feel.. I just want to lay there. Third, I'm not confused about the guy anymore. which is a good thing, but i feel like i want things to move faster. That is what my head wants to happen, but my heart wants to take the time and learn more about this person. I'm really scared to tell him that I'm about to graduate and possibly leave this town because I don't want him to stop whatever is possible whether it be friends or more than friends. AWWW what to do what to do because i really want to just find him and tell him that i think about him a lot, but i really don't know him that well. So in real life it sounds like i am after him for sex because that is what people do when they want sex, you say what you think they want to hear. This is not the case at all. I just want to get to know him better, but it seems that we both dont have a clue on how to start that. I need a push in the right direction...