Its been a long time

So wow its been a long time. Bobby has been messing with me because i have been posting songs and no real words about what is going on in my life.

So first thing is that I have finally graduated. I am so happy about that. Its been a long time for me because i have really had tough times in with school. Going thru money problems, and trying to find myself it was hard. But at least I have graduated. I had a lot of family there with me. My mother and father (of course) my sister, two aunts from my dad side and two aunts from my mothers side. It was a fun time. According to every one they ceremony was wonderful. IT was very quick and to the point. not very many people talking and it was really nice.

So now I'm home in St.Louis. I have been here since Tuesday, and I'm planning to leave on Sunday(but there are grantees about anything) I have been going around to see family and talk and see whats new. But at the same time i miss Lafayette, I know its been just a few days.. but really my life is not here. its not that I don't want to share my life with my family but hey I have been gone for the past 11 years, and life for me is just different.

I really miss Bobby... i don't know how I'm going to do this shit if i have to move. Hell you would think that we are an old married couple.. but we are just the best of friends who enjoy each others company. I feel that i could tell him again thing and not be judged. I called him today and he was sleep... but i guess we will make up time when i get back.

I talked to my friend last Sunday... Wow may i say that it was the longest conversation that we have had ever. Even though i texts him first.. he actually called me. How surprising. We are still in that getting to know you phase, may i say that this is the longest on that i have been in, and its really nice. Turns out that we have even more in common which is a good thing. IT was no nice to talk to him. Even though I have been gone, i haven't talked to him until today.. (well not talk but text) but still. I have thought about him a lot while i was here but I have been able to resist the temptation to call or text him. I told him when we talked that i needed to back up a little bit becuase when it comes to my social life, I have to think with my heart and not my head. Thinking with my head gets my in trouble, i think that i need to rush into everything. My heart really tells me that im doing the right thing but taking time to get to know him and see what he is all about. I also have to understand that he is not a phone person and he acutally told me that i will heard that about him, which im trying but it hard. As is life.

There is more to come but im just lazy to type and i want to be in my own place to finish this