Would I ever

Would I ever have a roommate again. I really don't believe that I would. Don't get my wrong I enjoy my current roommate, but I'm just tired of living with other people. You know how you just want to come home and it be quiet and you can watch a movie and stuff, that is what i want. Lately all i have really had on my mind was my future, wheter it be socially or professionally. I really does not include a roommate. It include friends, don't get my wrong people can come over and hang out and stuff spend the night, but that's all. I like my space all of my space. Wow... i just want a stress free life at this point. I really don't want to deal with my parents and their BS and I don't want o have to deal with people are lazy in my eyes. I want a man who will stand by my side and be with me through the good times and the bad. I don't want drama in my life, I'm really tired of people getting upset with me if I cant do what it is that they want at that time. At the same time i really should follow my own advice, because i tend to think that people don't like me if they don't answer in a timely manner. When i speak of a timely manner, i mean Kelvin time. and in Kelvin time you are suppose to answer me as soon as you get something from me. You know that doesn't actually work in the real world. Damn i hate that.

today i cant shake thinking about him...AAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW... why what does that mean. I just want to see him and talk to him, but I'm to flipping scared to make moves like that for fear of being declined. I know I'm a chicken shit. Even though I gave him flowers yesterday, I don't want to be the one to make ever move. But seeing as how he just got out of a relationship, so really can you expect a person to make plays for you when they are not truly healed from their past. My patience is very much being tested. So far i think that I'm passing because i haven't done most of the things that I would usually do like call, which is the wrong thing that I do... go figure again I'm a chicken shit. Oh well i guess it will continue to being tested becuase i just cant cant give up on something that i want really badly.. Today i really felt like crying becuase i just want to call him and say hi. But i dont want to be thought of as a stalker.

OH GOD its time to get going to work.... more to come