So much to say

Seriously its like 430 in the morning and I have no clue why I'm up. I don't have to work until 1pm... this is just sad. I'm starting to feel old because all i do is work. I truly feel that I am neglecting a lot of my friends because when I'm not busy they are. It just really sucks. But I'm trying at least i feel that I am trying so hard to keep up contact with people. but sorry that i have a busy schedule. I work 10 hours a day and once I'm done driving to work and back home, its more close to 12 - 13 hours of my day. I usually want to sleep when I get home but I'm trying to get out of that.

I really miss bobby, i have been reading his blog lastly and i guess I'm just as confused about what is going on in his life as he is. I cant remember when the last time was when we just sent a long time together just the two of us. I usually have to work the next day early when we hang out, and i know that I'm short changing him as far as my time goes. I am sorry for that. I hope that once all of my working issues come to term, i can spend some time mending my friendship with him. I also what to let you know Bobby, that i dont want you to feel that you have been replaced by Jim. he is a good friend of mine, and he can never replace you. Jim and I have dinner a lot becuase our schedule work, but you are my best friend and im not ready to get a new best friend. I love the one i got.

So here is an update on the mystery guy. First off his name is Roger, and yes I am still very interested in this guy. We had a lot of recent events that made me stop talking to him for a while, and I actually think that it was a great thing for me. The reason i stop talking to him was because of a situation where i felt very disrespected. After a lot of searching within myself, i came to the realization that we needed to either forget about each other or talk through the situation. Long story short, we talked through the situation. I actually went to his home last week, and to me was a big step on his part inviting me to his home. The last time one of us tried to do that, he got scared. I feel that i have met someone who has stolen my heart. To me (wheter or not my friends really agree) he is such a nice guy. I feel that he is different around his friends, and I have to still with that. But i like him and I have to deal with my fear concerning this man. So hopefully i will have some great news soon.

Just an Update

Hey... i know its been a long time since i have written anything, but so much is going on with my life. I will write something long very soon.

But just as a FYI... i really miss bobby.. not that i don't talk to him enough but we don't hang out as much as we use too. I just kinda sucks I really hope that when i return to Lafayette permanently things will change for the better. If you are reading this you are a person that i want in my life..i really hope that you know that.